A few weeks ago I bought a bike and started realizing the joy of having access to all parts of the city at anytime. Lately when I get on my bike one idea comes into mind: runaway. I imagine just riding and never looking back and having no idea where I plan to go. There’s something different about this year, that’s making it harder for me to feel “good.” When I get on my bike, I feel free, not from the stress of school, but from the constant pressure I place upon myself. There were two lessons read at service on Sunday and one of them I felt more than usual.
1 John 3: 1-3 says “See what love the Father has given us, that we should be called children of God; and that is what we are. The reason the world does not know us is that it did not know him. 2 Beloved, we are God’s children now; what we will be has not yet been revealed. What we do know is this: when he is revealed, we will be like him, for we will see him as he is. 3 And all who have this hope in him purify themselves, just as he is pure.” I don’t know why, but now more than ever I have needed God to be my hope. Sure there are fears of the future, am I making the right moves, can I move past the mistakes of the past and will I be the person I ultimately want to be. However, I know the power of hope, and how it changes things. So, I’m holding on until I feel the tide turn. A gospel song that comes to mind is This Too Shall Pass. I can’t explain what I’m feeling, but I know it can’t be here long. My God is too powerful and too loving to give me something I could not handle.