November 16, 2010
I went to Shkodra for a day because I had to see the castle of Rozafa. I also had to go to the city where the Albanian language is spoken most gracefully, at least in my opinion. In one of the city’s main bookstores, I met a young poet, Lisandri Kola, by chance, who reminded me how rich the Albanian language is. I’m looking forward to translating more of his work, but a short poem from his collection The Eyeless Rabi (Rabini i Pasy) goes:
I hate that door
I hate that door
I curse it through my teeth
as when I was a child
and the owner of the house
would throw back our ball, torn.
Shkodra is a two hour drive north of Tirana, sharing a border with Montenegro through Lake Shkodra, the largest lake in the Balkans. The Castle of Rozafa stands on a hill overlooking the meeting of two rivers, Buna from northwest and Drin from the southeast.
The legend of Rozafa has captured my imagination since when I was a child. It’s a simple story: what it takes to keep a promise, a prominent theme in Albanian folklore. The castle is some 2,500 years old, with its first stones being cast a long, long time ago, when the Illyrian tribes of Labeats and Ardians lived in the land. Legend has it that a thick fog fell over Buna river, covering it for three days and three nights. After three days and three nights, the fog lifted, the wind sent it over Valdanuz hill where three brothers worked at building a castle. But the walls they built during the day came down at night, all their hard work going to waste.
An old man happened to pass by and the brothers asked him if he had any advice on how to keep the castle walls from being destroyed every night. Hesitating at first, the old man asked them all if they were married, then told them that for the walls to stand, they had to sacrifice the wife who would bring them lunch the next day. She’d have to be buried alive in the foundations of the castle (immured) for the castle to stand strong and last. The brothers promised one another that they wouldn’t say a word to their wives at home about this. However, the oldest brother told his wife advising her to avoid bringing them lunch tomorrow. So did the second brother. Only the youngest brother kept his word and didn’t say anything to his wife.
The next day, the mother-in-law asked her eldest daughter-in-law if she could take lunch to the men. The eldest daughter-in-law said she couldn’t, because she was sick. The mother-in-law asked the second daughter-in-law, who in turn also said she couldn’t, because she was going to visit her own family that day. So the mother-in-law turned to the youngest daughter-in-law who was ready to go except that she was worried her newborn son would be left at home crying and needing milk. The other two daughters-in-law quickly offered to take care of him, so the youngest one set forth to take lunch to the brothers.
When her husband saw her coming up the hill carrying a pot of wine on her left shoulder and a tray of bread under her right arm, he threw down his hammer and started cursing the stones. “Why do you curse the stones, love?” Rozafa asked him. “Cursed is the day you were born,” said the eldest brother, “we’ve agreed to bury you alive in the foundations of the castle so that the castle walls will last”. “May you prosper,” she replied, “but I have one request: when you bury me, leave my right eye exposed, my right breast, my right arm and my right leg. Because my son is still little. When he starts to cry, I will watch him with one eye, I will caress him with one hand, rock his cradle with one foot and feed him with one breast. May my breast turn to stone and the castle stand strong. May my son grow to be brave, become king and reign a long time”.
Afterwards, they buried her. The castle walls were built tall and lasted for centuries. They say the stones at the feet of the walls, are moist, covered in moss, because the mother continues to cry for her son.
Photos from Rozafa Castle:
I was walking among the ruins and had to stop a few times when I came across white filaments in the form of torn long webs floating in the air. Quite large, five to seven palms wide, white and soft like fine cotton threads. One attached itself to me, or maybe I touched it first and then couldn’t get rid of it. They were really white which is why I didn’t suspect them to be spider webs. But later, the taxi driver told me they were exactly that, spider webs being carried off from the castle stones by the wind. And there I was imagining for a brief instance I had witnessed what the legend claims, that Rozafa’s breast milk still flows down the stones of the castle and that maybe the wind was carrying off some odd dry form of it ahead in front of me…
November 15, 2010
I am back in the U.S., but will continue to post a few more things about my stay in Tirana the last week in Albania as well as about a few more trips I took to the old cities of Shkodra, Kruje, Berat and Vlora. I had no internet from end of October until my return to the U.S. on Nov. 11th so couldn’t post anything sooner. Here’s a little unfinished note on Tirana.
How do you know you’re in Tirana? Well, for me, one sure sign is walking on the boulevards and finding my feet needing to dodge other people’s phlegm every two steps I take. I don’t know what it is, but catching men spitting on the street here is as common as having to clear the air of mosquitoes on a summer evening. I don’t know why they have this need to clear up their throats and spit out with such determination as if that would help them instantly start a better life. You’d think it’s from all the smoking they do here, or the pollution. But I think it’s more complicated than that. Something cathartic about it. An inexplicable need to curse the ground they walk on. I didn’t notice this anywhere else in Albania.
On a more general note, you know you’re in Albania if you’re driving on the highway and see humongous gas stations that are at the same time hotels, bars, restaurants, cafes and supermarkets all built into one. Quite glamorous too, colorful and the cleanest things around!
One thing I’ll miss from here is the laundry machines and laundry detergents. Laundry takes a long time here, maybe an hour and a half for a wash and then you have to air dry everything as drying machines are not that popular. But once your clothes are done washing, they’re really clean. And the laundry detergents smell so good this side of Europe. I wouldn’t mind doing laundry for a living here.
I’m not sure how I feel about Tirana even now that I’ve spent more time in it. It just doesn’t sit right with me that nothing has been done to prevent the amount of new buildings constructed here even as everyone knows that there are more buildings than there is need for. The entire population of Tirana is a little less than a million in a country of about three million people, but there have been enough apartments constructed to fit a population of three millions in Tirana alone. The number of apartments constructed in other touristy cities such as Saranda, Vlora and Durres is just as ridiculously large compared to the population count of those cities. I have a sinking feeling about this. Anyone can feel free to move in and I bet they will, from all surrounding countries and then there’ll be a small America all over again in the midst of Europe. Or maybe I’m being unrealistically paranoid. But it’s not rocket science to figure out that the powers that be have given this country up for grabs.
So I leave Tirana knowing that for things to feel promising they will have to first look terrible like the current big dig smack in the center of the city.
Photos from Tirana
When my family and I first landed in the U.S. back in 1996, it was July 4th and it seemed as though the entire country had come out to celebrate and welcome us. On my last night in Tirana this time, all the Albanians were celebrating. I don’t know how much this was covered by the news in the U.S., but on November 8th, Albanians were officially granted permission from the EU to travel to some 27 countries in Europe without visas. I am happy this happened for the Albanians, finally. I was worried, initially, about what it would be like or what it would mean to “return home” after such a long period of absence. I have lots to write about it, but leaving Albania that November 10th morning, I kept thinking of a few lines from one of my favorite Albanian contemporary writers, Arianit Roshi:
“Kthim nuk ka.
Kthimet u dogjën me Trojën”.
“There is no return.
All returns burnt down with Troy”.
October 29, 2010
Last days in Korça
Yes!!! I woke up this morning and there was snow on top of Dry Mountain and other several ranges of mountains that surround Korça. I’ll be leaving for Tirana shortly and this is the best way I could leave this part of Albania with my head turned back to look at snowcapped mountains.
I will miss this different way of doing things, this different way of being among people. People in Korça are curious (well, in Albania in general really), they love to find out who you are, where you are from, what studies have you completed, have you gotten married, do you have children, because if you’re single they love to play matchmaker. If you go to visit someone, they will first shake hands with you at the door, maybe kiss you on both cheeks, or if you know each other well and are women, you’ll kiss twice on both cheeks. Then they’ll invite you in and, after you have sat down, the people of the house will come to you again and shake hands one more time and say “mirë se na ardhe” (glad to see you well) and you will say “mirë se ju gjeta” (glad to find you well). After a good chit-chat, the woman of the house will go and get the stuff to “qeras” (treat) you with. Usually a small shot of raki for the male guests and liqueur for female guests, chocolates or cookies, nuts (especially walnuts at this time of year), juice, fruits, desert in the form of baklava or cake, whatever they have they’ll bring it out to you on a silver or wooden tray. Before you put your drink to your mouth though, you should wish the host something: “gëzuar, me nje djale vajza” (cheers, may your daughter have a son), or, “gëzuar, e me shëndet, veç të mira paci gjithmonë o Zot” (cheers, good health and God grant you only good things) etc. etc…
I guess small things like these left an impression on me because I’m not used to practicing this type of hospitality in my own house, although I’ve grown up with it and my parents still bring out the treats every time we go there or someone else visits.
And now I must show off photos of amazing work done by hand from a woman I met in Korça, who, unfortunately, would let me buy only one of these wonderful Romanian point lace pieces and wouldn’t let me take her photograph. She said she’d done so many of these all her life and gifted so much away, that now the only few pieces she makes are for her daughters who live in the U.S. One of these pieces could take her a good three or more months to make and it’s all done by hand, first by crocheting a very long braid which is then sewn into the piece of paper where the design’s pattern is drawn as in this photo:
and then the spaces between the hoops of the braid are filled in with more delicate and intricate work done mostly with a typical needle. This type of crochet is of Romanian origins, usually done by nuns who had the time to busy themselves with such intricate work. In Albania, you’d only find this type of crochet in very few families where the women had learned how to stitch this way in special schools run by Italian nuns who’d come to Korça before WWII. Before the war, one woman’s grandmother who went to this school also subscribed to the school’s magazine that still runs today in Italy called “Mani di Fata” (Fairy’s Hands), a magazine that would come to Albania until a few years after WWII ended.
Here are some of the beautiful centerpieces this Korçar woman had made:
To end my chapter on Korça for the moment, and having introduced Lasgush Poradeci a few posts below, I thought it would be of interest to post another translation of mine of a poem written for Lasgush by Natasha Lako, Albanian poet and novelist born in Korça in 1948. Along with my mother, Julia Gjika, Lako belongs to the first generation of Albanian women poets. Their first books of poems date from 1971/1972. I’m also thrilled to mention that my mother’s fourth book of poems came out here in Albania this week and I can’t wait to go to Tirana to pick up a hard copy. Perhaps I’ll translate and post a poem from that book here soon. For now, here’s Lako’s poem, “Piano, Piano”.
Lasgush Poradeci, Albanian poet, 1899-1987
Now I understand why the old man, hidden under his hat
kept on aging – piano, piano – the dead Mozart within.
Piano, piano, his hair grew white –
fine music notes needing no stave lines.
The lake itself would turn into his grand piano
and the wind, the invisible sea swaying around us,
was born to break – piano, piano – our funeral march.
For the lake to speak, you must play it with all your fingers, piano, piano,
but as this isn’t possible, piano, piano, everyone has left.
So thought Lasgush, or the poet, simply.
The ending resonates with me when I think of the Albanian exodus in the summer of 1990 and spring of 1991 following the collapse of a 48-year long Commusit rule. About one in six Albanians left, the only possible reaction of a people who had been kept in complete isolation for half a century. Today, every family in Albania has at least one blood relative making a living somewhere else in the world.
I see the lake in Lako’s poem as a symbol of freedom, and the ability to hear it speak as a way of comprehending true freedom and spiritual fulfilment. In the early ’90s there was no way for Albanians to know how to listen to freedom, much less translate what they were hearing. But 20 years later, I can see they’ve learned how to play freedom with all their fingers… Pretty soon the liberalization of visas in this country will take place and Albanians will finally be able to travel to most countries in Europe again like any other free citizen. For this “më bëhet zemra mal”, an old Albanian saying that basically means “I’m so glad/happy” but which translates as “my heart becomes a mountain”.
No matter what Albania has gone through having been a small intersection spot in the middle of powerful empires crossing it back and forth, trying to transform it intentionally or not in the process, these last 20 years show this small country’s strong will to survive and desire to preserve its identity in the midst of strong external and internal influences to quickly forget the past, to become something different…
Perhaps the place that feels the least Albanian to me at the moment is Tirana, maybe because I didn’t spend enough time there, or because it’s the capital city and every business and religion in the world has sprouted in it painting its face according to their whims. There’s a saying in Albania that goes “aty ku shkelin, nuk mbin bar” which means “grass doesn’t grow on trampled trails”. At the moment, I feel like this applies to Tirana. On those first couple of weeks I spent there, nothing felt Albanian to me anymore. Maybe it’s because I didn’t feel Albanian anymore… hmm, I don’t know. I’m off to Tirana in a few days to see if I can find out…
3:00PM, October 24, 2010
It’s 3:00pm, the time when most Albanians have finished lunch and are in their bedrooms or simply lying on the couches of their living rooms for their afternoon siesta. I’m sitting outside on the veranda of my fifth-floor hotel room facing the lake. It’s so quiet, the smallness of the city is palpable. Or maybe what I’m feeling is the unmistakable presence of my own body, fully here now for the first time ever since I’ve arrived in this country. Someone is playing the violin several buildings behind me from a first or second floor apartment.
Far in the horizon, where Macedonia’s hills and mountains should be, a fine blue cloud has hidden them away. Now I know why Lasgush would call this “the boundless lake”. On days like this, you can’t see where the lake borders on the opposite side of this shore. The lake, the blue film of cloud and the sky are one endless escape from the mountains extending out into the lake from both sides of Pogradec. Seagulls are whirling above like certain thoughts you love to keep returning to. A mother and child are out by the lake feeding breadcrumbs to three swans. One car drives down below. Then quiet again. Then somebody’s young dog is very upset, barking his head off that I’m not sure if it’s really a dog barking or a bunch of turkeys stuffed inside laundry machines. Another car passes… someone is sawing wood on the outskirts of the city. If I were out on the lake right now it would be even quieter, so quiet that it would be louder, the way lake water channels sounds from the shore to all its corners.
It’s the end of October. A few more weeks and the first snow will make this place more magical and more lonely.
Last night I watched the full moon rise from Dry Mountain a sliver at a time like the round face of a child who plays shy from behind a couch just to catch your attention. Local legend has it that the mountain once was full of trees, vegetation, animals. Both sun and moon rose from this mountain as they do to this day and the mountain fell in love with the moon. However, the moon would kiss the mountain and then leave. Kiss and leave, kiss and leave, and the mountain dried out from longing. Nothing grows there anymore.
The battery on my camera died this weekend and I realized I had forgotten to pack my charger which is currently back in Korça. Luckily, the hotel I’m staying in is right next to a couple of photo studios (Foto Genti and Foto Maqo) where the owners were kind enough to let me “borrow” some of their photos of Pogradec to post on this blog. I’m thrilled that they let me take a photo or two of Pogradec in winter. Wish I could be here when it snows…
But for now, I’m happy looking at these three silver “plepa” that look like feathers…
11:00AM, October 24, 2010
This morning the fog lifted and the clouds were gone. I’ve been in Pogradec for the weekend and after a long week of rain, the sun has sent off all clouds behind Dry Mountain and the sky can see the lake again. I went for a walk along the passeggiata by the lake, a 1-2km long sidewalk that runs along the lake on one side and the city’s park on the other. It’s windy so the lake is playing ocean. I seem to be the only female walking here. There are no children or young adults. They’re either at school or at work at this time of day, this time of year. The only people out on the sidewalk with me are elderly men who I find sitting in groups here and there across the park playing cards, domino, or simply debating over something. Orphaned elderly people are general all over Albania.
October 23, 2010
If you drive away, north of Korça, for about 40 minutes, you’ll reach Pogradec, the city by lake Ohrid which faces Macedonia, mainly St. Naum, Ohrid and Struga. It rained softly just now and the sun was shining at the same time. And then I was right to expect a rainbow which arched over the entire lake bridging the gap between the two countries.
Pogradec is the city of two of my favorite Albanian authors: Lasgush Poradeci (1899-1987), major poet of the 20th century and one of the best translators of Russian and British poetry into Albanian. The other one, Mitrush Kuteli (1907-1967), was one of the best prose writers, author of Tregime të Moçme Shqiptare, (Ancient Albanian Tales), Lasgush’s contemporary and long-time friend. Bronze statues of the two writers stand facing one another in the park at the entrance of the city, right next to the lake. The statues were made by a local artist and have been put here a little over a year ago. Lasgush has his faithful dog Cuci (pronounced tzoo-tzee) standing next to him. Holding on to a cane, hat sitting just above his eyebrows, he’s turned his head toward the lake as if to say: “how could anyone not want to be a poet”. Mitrush is holding books in the pocket of his coat and his hat on his right hand; he seems to be looking down, but right at me as if he knows exactly why I’m here. That’s why I can’t look at him for too long.
I tried translating one of Lasgush’s poems and my favorite of his on Pogradec. He’s a real wordsmith, creating new Albanian words which is why translating him has often been difficult. His work reminds me of Yeats so much and vice versa. There are two versions of this poem so I’m pasting each one:
Pogradec (1922 version)
Sunset over the small city:
…………………….Afterwards weather is king.
Like a shadow a fine cloth slowly-slowly spreads above.
Through the mountain, through the valleys, a song of secrecy unwinds:
The breath of an Albanian night is heard throbbing from all sides.
You can’t hear a peep anywhere the country wide:
In the village, a gate cackles… on the lake, drops an oar…
An eagle flees over Dry Mountain –
Youth’s heart sinks within my soul.
All the people, all life broke off… swooned and fell asleep…
From four corners darkness governed…
Starting off his journey through the heart of Albania,
Old Drin, the spell-caster, flows down from St. Naum.
Pogradec (1929 version)
Misting sunset on the boundless lake.
Like a shadow a fine cloth slowly-slowly spreads above.
Through the mountain, through the fields, night’s embers start to fall
Coming down from the sky, fading into hamlets low.
You can’t hear a peep anywhere the country wide:
In the village, a gate cackles… on the lake, hushes an oar…
An eagle flees over Dry Mountain –
Youth’s heart sinks within my soul.
All the people, all life broke off… swooned and went to sleep…
From four corners darkness governed…
Starting off his journey through the heart of Albania,
Old Drin, the spell-caster, flows down from St. Naum…
October 22, 2010
Autumn is here and for most of Albania that means rain and lots of it every day. I’m thinking of James Joyce’s description of snow in “The Dead”, how snow is general all over Ireland. The same is true for rain in October here. It’s not a heavy rain, although from time to time a really dark cloud may pass and you can soak in seconds. But mainly, the rain here is gentle and a bit of a poet, falling on you so that it becomes part of you without you noticing.
Early in the morning, clouds cover the hills and mountains that surround Korça, the city where my grandparents were from and where, as a child, I spent all my summers. Clouds stretch as far down below as Shëndëllia (St. Ilia hill), Kampi i Punëtorëve (Workers’ Camp), Varrezat e Dëshmorëve (Cemetery of War Heroes) and from there, like the hands of a drowsing octopus, reach out over the houses down the cobblestone streets that lead far from the hill and into the center of the city.
I had missed these streets the most. You can leave the main Republika boulevard downtown, turn right into any one of these cobblestone streets and look up to where they lead at the feet of Shëndëllia hill. With my sneakers tightly laced, sweatshirt zipped up to my chin, I’m ready to head up all the way to the end of the street and then hike up the hill to Kampi i Punëtorëve for a coffee, or go see St. Triadha church. On the way there, I greet the women who’ve come out to sweep the strip of land in front of their houses. What I like best is the variety of houses on each street, one more unique than the last one. Each woman takes care of their gardens so there’s a competition of flowers and all the ladies are winners. Outside one house, firewood has just been delivered and the man who lives there comes out to carry it inside, an armful at a time. Most houses still have a wood stove for general heating with a long tube extending from the stove to the ceiling where the tube twists and goes through the wall to carry the smoke out of the house.
My favorite thing to do as a child was to sit in the living room, possibly when no one was around, so I could hear the fire battling down the wind inside the stove. My grandfather would say that the louder the fire spoke the harsher the winter would be. From what I heard last night in the house I’m staying in, it’s going to be one such winter.
The closer you get to Shëndëllia hill, the more of Korça you can see down below.
From there, if you take a left, you’ll reach Barçi, an old village of Korça that is now stretching down the hill and becoming nearly an extension of the city. Barçi is predominantly Muslim, but all the Muslims here go to church. There is no mosque. If you go to the house with the green metal gate that sits at the end of upper Barçi, close enough to the village cemetery, you’ll find the old lady that rolls fresh tobacco she grows herself and smokes it without filter. She’ll recite poetry for as long as you’ll sit there to listen and then she’ll give you raki and you better drink it if you call yourself a woman or man. Raki is an alcoholic drink made from grapes, sometimes from mulberries, transparent just like water, but a little sip of it and you feel all your veins breathe.
More photos from Korça:
The best thing about Korça, is that within 20 minutes in any direction, you can find yourself in any mountain you want, visiting any village you like. I guess I’ve fallen in love with the villages of Southern Albania. Everywhere I go, I go a little farther, out of the city. And since Albania is full of mountains, you’re bound to walk this land one mountain village at a time. Below are some photos from different surrounding villages of Korça.
October 14, 2010
Soon after my arrival in Tirana, I headed south to visit the place where my maternal grandmother was born and raised. All my life I had heard the words, “nga një fshat minoritar Grek” meaning, “from a Greek minority village” when I would ask where grandma was from. I didn’t understand until much later that she was of Greek origins, born and raised in Lefterohor, a small village off of Delvina in the district of Saranda, the southernmost city of Albania. Saranda is only 2 miles by sea from the Greek island of Corfu. Most of the Greek minority in Albania lives in the south, in and around Saranda, ever since the borders were divided between Greece and Albania in 1913.
The language spoken by the ethnic Greeks differs slightly from today’s Greek language. “Lefterohor” is made up of two Greek words meaning “a free village”. Lefterohor is said to have been inhabited before the 16th century. In 1582, there were 48 families living there. In 1852, the number of families decreased to 30. According to a population recount in 1913, the village was inhabited by 240 people all of whom were Hellenic, (Greek). In 1926, there were 76 families, whereas today, only about 90 people altogether still live in Lefterohor.
All you see from Saranda when you try to find Lefterohor in the distance is a row of mountains. But the mountains are mostly gray and Lefterohor is easily distinguishable because it’s the only hill in the midst of these naked mountains that is covered entirely by a lush green chestnut forest. The village houses lie right around the feet of the forest.
Everyone’s sons and daughters have immigrated to Greece after the ’90s and have sent money home for their families to rebuild their houses. All the houses I saw were beautiful with brand new tiled roofs and white walls, plenty of yard space, but the main road to Lefterohor is yet to be paved. As I’m writing this, the prime minister of Albania, Sali Berisha, is promising on TV to rebuild a further 2,000 Km of roads to villages and remote Albanian communities throughout the country. If he really pushes this and succeeds, he’ll be my favorite Albanian yet!
Unfortunately, Lefterohor, like many Albanian villages and small towns, is now inhabited almost entirely by elderly people. Immigration has taken all youth abroad and the houses and streets wake up and fall asleep to the sounds of these older people walking quiet corridors every day. But the village is full of life in another way: delicious grape vines in every house, fig trees, apple trees, walnut trees and the best cold water that comes straight from the mountains. Here’s my grandma’s first cousin, the sweetest little woman who gave me homemade fig marmalade on toast for breakfast that morning.
When she’d smile, the skin on her forehead wrinkled quite gracefully like tatted lace. Tatted lace covered everything in her house as in most Albanian houses: tatted curtains, tatted bedsheets, centerpieces, blankets. Nothing says more home to an Albanian than a room where coffee-tables, bookshelves and windows are dressed up in intricately designed tatted lace. I asked her if she felt more Greek or Albanian and she couldn’t answer. I was happy that she didn’t.
My mother came with me to Lefterohor and when we left, the old lady gave us a few wreaths of dried figs to take home with us. Mom returned to the U.S. a few weeks ago unaware that the figs wouldn’t pass through customs checkpoint in Boston even though she had packed them in her check-in luggage. A customs lady had torn open her suitcase when the zipper had gotten stuck, then proceeded to remove each article of clothing one by one. When she had found the wreaths of figs, she had taken a knife and sliced each one fearing there were drugs inside them and made a scene even as my mother was telling her that she was ill and couldn’t stand there much longer. The figs ended up in a trash can at Logan Airport. In the end, my mother had to demand her suitcase be taped as there was no way to close it shut.
It was unsettling to hear about this even though I understand the mistake my mother had made. But what does it take for those who are supposed to protect us to begin to persecute us? I saw this in Tirana, too, in government offices where officials are supposed to help common citizens. I can understand officials who have suffered the intolerable behavior of other customers, but I don’t understand how they now treat everyone with disrespect as soon as they know you are Albanian. I suppose all I can do is pray for these people to be more patient with the world. I know they are doing their job and I’m grateful for it, but maybe they shouldn’t be doing that job if they can’t handle it all the time.
After spending two days and one night in Lefterohor, I returned to Saranda. Saranda has been a famous Albanian vacation spot for decades and is now enjoying a healthy tourism from all over the world. However, here, too, like in Tirana, sheer concrete has taken over natural beauty. There are more apartment buildings and hotels constructed recently than there is need for. Wherever you go, you see empty buildings either under construction, or abandoned, because of overconstruction.
Still, a city on a white rock surrounded by blue waters can’t but take your breath away.
I decided to visit the national archaeological park of Butrint, a microcosm of medieval history, located only a half hour ride from Saranda. According to a brochure I picked up at the entrance, what one sees today at this site is a mixture of monuments that represent a timetable of 2,000 years, from the Hellenic temples of the 4th century B.C. to the Otoman fortification walls built at the beginning of the 19th century A.D.
According to classical mythology, Butrint, earlier known as Buthrotum, was founded by immigrants who fled occupied Troy. When Priam’s son arrived here, he sacrificed a bull which, after writhing in pain from the wounds, finally died on the seashore. Taking this as a good omen, the place was named Buthrotum, meaning “the wounded bull”. Virgil’s poem “Eneid” tells of Enea visiting Butrint on his way to Italy.
Around the ruins grows plenty of fresh rosemary. I found Daphne, rooted and waiting by the Roman bath. Everything in Butrint is built entirely of white rock, so I picked up a small piece of rock and replaced it from the left side of the path I was walking on to the right – a small personal gesture that I had been there.
Some gorgeous photos from Butrint can be found here: http://www.butrint.org/index.php
And now the lights have gone out and I have to wait until they come back before I can get online to post this…
October 12, 2010
Views from the balconies of the place I stayed in while in Tirana this time:
There’s something about the ignorance of another country’s language that makes your trip there so much more liberating and exciting. You’re free to imagine what the people mean whenever they open their mouths, what they’re saying about you, what their lives are like. You’re free to imagine new sounds you can make and when you attempt to really speak with them the conversation is so much more charming: they’re amazed by your perseverance to learn something so difficult and you’re amazed at how happy they are that you know the words for “the bill, please”, or, “how much for this”.
It’s also liberating to be a mere citizen of your own country. It’s liberating to get lost in a crowd of many who speak the same language you do.
But here, I am neither a complete foreigner who doesn’t speak Albanian, nor a proper Albanian even though I speak the language. Here, I’m anything but liberated. More like cautious, worried, anxious, unsure about how or when to smile, or for how long. As soon as I open my mouth, I’m one of those people who left this country and didn’t come back.
When I first got here, I felt resentful. I didn’t like Tirana at all. This is where I grew up. But a little walk and a bus ride around the city and I felt like I was suffocating in someone’s living room where a naughty child had taken all of his toys and thrown them in a fit on the floor. Buildings and cars. They’re too many and everywhere in Tirana. Wherever you look, they seem to have landed on top of one another the way that spoiled child threw them. I have to grip my friend’s hand when I cross a little street because there are no semaphores, or, if there are, there are too many cars that push forward before I can put my feet on the street. Then, the greatest paradox: on one of the main boulevards, I watch a stray white dog dodge about ten different cars as she calmly, but swiftly, crosses the road. A little while later, a car hits a 60 year old man who jumps in the air, lands on his feet, and arms akimbo continues walking without saying a word to the driver who nearly killed him.
I went to see the place where I used to live, a small second-floor apartment that we sold right before moving to the U.S. in 1996. I met one of my friend’s mother and my friend’s son who was as old as the time I’ve been away. My friend was at work and I’ll meet her when I go back to Tirana. When I left, I didn’t even take a photo of my old building, or of Lana river which crosses just behind our house. Instead, I took a photo of the building right in front. What is now a toy-like parking lot used to be a little park I played in with all the other kids from this building. They’ve all moved away to some country in Europe or someplace else in Tirana. I still remember playing on the foundations of this building during its construction in the early 80s. A large skull drawn in charcoal next to the electricity box and the words “rrezik vdekje” – “deadly danger” made us all want to play around those bare, roofless columns and empty rooms even more. Nearly 30 years later, the building looks more barren than it seemed then before it was completed.
I left Tirana too soon. I decided to spend my last weeks there before I leave Albania and so I left it before I could begin to want to adjust to it. I walked a lot but didn’t take any photos. I will write about Tirana on a much later post, but wanted to mention that I found the nicest little bookshop/internet cafe there, E-7-E, or, “E pershtatshme” – a play on the word “adaptable”. In Albanian, “e pershtatshme” comes from the root word for “body” – “shtat” but which also means “seven”. One of the sellers introduced me to a handful of books by wonderful young Albanian poets I wasn’t aware of. The shop has a cozy atmosphere, a neat little corner at the end of the room decorated with divans traditionally dressed in red that sit slightly low to the floor in a right angled U-shape around a dark, wooden coffee table. At the end of this room, to the left, French doors open to a large veranda with more comfortable chairs to sit and read, drink, chat with friends. I like to sit in this area when it rains on the glass ceiling. From what I understood speaking with one of the workers there, the shop needs a lot more books, mainly foreign literature, and I hope that shipping from the U.S. won’t be too costly when I put together a few boxes for this place as soon as I go home. I’ll post pictures of E-7-E when I go back to Tirana…
October 10, 2010
I finally managed to access my blog this weekend. I’ve been in and around Albania for a month now, getting sick half of my time here so far, feeling frustrated, loving the land.
On my way here back in early September, I remember getting on an Alitalia flight from Rome to Tirana (the capital city of Albania), a short flight of less than an hour. The entire plane was filled with Albanians. There was no air conditioning and everyone was complaining and trying to fan themselves with the safety instructions pamphlet. The only Italian on board kept asking the stewardess to do something about the A/C, that it was a shame there was none and that the Albanians will register this and remember… . It was a brief introduction to the state of affairs this side of Europe, be they economical, social, or both. The plane must have been old and had a defect. Hopefully, all flights to Tirana do cover all the basic necessities.
We were among the clouds when the plane descended and a long row of blue mountains suddenly stretched out the window, north to south, as far as the eye could see. The wrinkled relief of the land made me think of an old woman who’d carefully crumple the tablecloth after dinner before taking it outside to shake off the breadcrumbs. From above, Albania is gorgeous, blue-green with golden fields, lakes and rivers… Once we landed, I was forced to check myself and reply “po” and “falemnderit” when the easiest words coming out were “yes” and “thank you.” Someone at the customs window asked me when I had last been in Albania and when I mentioned “14 years ago,” she looked at me and said, “you won’t recognize your country, Ani.”
Outside of the airport, I was looking at things, automatically trying to place what I saw with what I’d previously seen in other places I’ve lived: Thailand, India. Stray dogs outside the airport were bathing in the sun just like in Thailand and the taxi drivers rushed to take my suitcase like they do in India and Thailand unless you’re accompanied by someone else. Luckily, my uncle was waiting for me.
The ride from the airport to the center of the city was brutal in the sense that there are so many pedestrians and cars on the road; people walk and drive each at their own speed and rules and funnily enough, that makes the traffic move quite well. You don’t get stuck here the way you get stuck in traffic on the pike in Boston. Here, there’s no order and yet that’s how things move.
I’ll post a few photos for now and come back to write about Tirana and other towns on different posts a little later. Even now, a month later, I still feel like I’m not really here, like I’ve only come here telepathically, somehow. My body isn’t here yet. But my eyes are glued here right now.
April 28, 2010
This September, I will travel to Albania, where I was born and raised. I’ll spend two months revisiting places I probably misremember, hopefully write new stuff, and meet with the Albanian women poets whose works I am translating into English. This will be the first time I return home after 14 years. The most prominent theme in my writing, so far, is my Albanian childhood. By going back, I risk invalidating everything I’ve ever written about Albania: I have hardly any family left there; the boulevards and esplanades where I walked with friends are probably wider, stronger, able to accommodate cars, or motorcycles; the friends themselves mostly gone, and those who remain, possibly too strange. I hope this journey affects my poetry in ways I cannot predict, in ways that I welcome.