I think of you today, the night of Father’s Day,
Instead of, as usually, thinking of myself
As the father of my children.
My children!
Saying it is enough
To pull on the strings of my heart
As they say;
It is a physical feeling
One unlike others
I am almost certain
You felt it, too.
Certainly for your first-born
Son
Hans-Jürgen
Who was abandoned
Brought up by his Jehovah’s witnesses’ grandmother
In Berlin
He came to us,
Dazed, confused,
James Dean in his undershirt
Shaving in front of
The small mirror
Suspended on the wall
Of his basement room.
This became my domicile
Where the organ you bought
Replaced
What?
Love? Affection?
I kissed you
With the love of my mouth
You returned my warmth
With a stranger’s card
In your jacket pocket,
Found by my mother,
Your wife.
The gun
In the drawer of your bedstead
Fired blanks.
I appreciated the heavy burden
Of your life
Too late
to tell you.
I am puzzled
Now
But then, I thought
I knew.
But now,
I don’t.
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trunnion ball valve posted on August 26, 2022 at 2:15 am
For my father | Michael Zank1661494497