Category: Nick

Confidence, Arrogance, Slices of Humbleness Pie

Last week, I spent time on a service trip with Sojourn in Oakland California. We slept at a church called Three Crosses Church and helped do repairs for a local multi-ethnic and multi-generational church in an Oakland neighborhood named Regeneration Church. We also did work for a newly started nonprofit called 1951 Coffee Company that […]

Cyclical Anxieties and Trust

The only thing I have perfect access to is my own mind, and what I know about the world is based on my own perceived experiences. While I love talking about how we gain knowledge, and I often think about what real things are – which, in my opinion, is anything we can be wrong […]

Unrelenting Grace for an Unrelenting Failure

I walked out the side door of Marsh Chapel. The air outside was refreshing. I felt my head running at hundreds of miles per hour, except this time it was not the result of a fear or anxiety. It was not guilt or pain or hurt. It was the sermon I heard today, and the […]

Experiments in Time

It is right now the end of one week, and the beginning of another week. I sat in the pews and looked up at the Mandala-like stained glass window of Christ for a long moment that felt just a little too brief before going downstairs at Marsh Chapel to grab a bagel and sit down, […]

Darkness, Negative Infinity

“Darkness such that haunts my soul. Desperate longing for an absent God The torture and the pain I can’t explain My heart cries.” -the Liturgists These lyrics were sounding through my headphones as I walked through the dining hall Tuesday afternoon. Several years ago, the Liturgists, an experimental art project spearheaded by Michael and Lisa […]

Granos de Mostaza

I was originally about to write a blog post about my dreams and goals. I was going to reflect on what I really truly genuinely wanted to do after college, and whether or not I felt happy in my degree program because that has been pressing on me more and more lately. But, then I […]

Much More Alive

I originally wrote a blog post about my “Vibes” playlists. Roughly 1100 words in, I concluded that I did not want to sum up my year that way. Each playlist was about a different summer Orientation session or week during the summer, or a month of school during the semester. Each five-song playlist contained songs […]

Grieving Heartbreak

This week was very long – and yet, I do not recall doing very much this week. I had one midterm. It took a lot of energy to motivate myself to study for it. It took a lot of energy to sit down and work through the notes and the practice problems. It took a […]

Implosions

This week was full of surprises. I cannot say they were positive surprises. I cannot say that I was happy. I can say that I was surprised. Actually, it was a negative kind of surprise. It felt like an explosion. But it didn’t really feel like an explosion at the same time. It felt like […]

Realizations, Rituals

Last week was a good week. Sure, I might have stressed a little bit too much about the midterms I have this week, I might have been very sick for several days, I might have struggled with some assignments, and it might have been a long week, but at the end of it all it […]